UGH!!

I've had a rough week. It seems to me anyway. I've felt like everything has come crashing in on me.
It was so bad yesterday that I cried on the way home from class.

See, I'm tired of school. I'm getting SO burned out! And I haven't gotten into the program yet. That will take another 2 yrs., if I get in. This semester has felt like the semester from hell. I just want it to end. I'm procrastinating with everything to do with school and then there I am at the last minute finishing EVERYTHING! I have so much on my plate with classes and homework that I'm going bonkers.

I feel like I lost it. The drive. The goal.

And then add PMS to the mix! Good Lord!!! I am freaked!

Even my hubby is driving me batty!!! No, CRAZY!! Sometimes I don't know how I feel where he's concerned. I'm annoyed, thrilled, pissed off at him...etc...a confusion of craziness. I felt sometimes, better before I got married. And yet, I'm happier now too..how crazy do I sound?? I've got someone who cares for me and doesn't care what I do or when I want to do it...And here I am, pissy with him and having feelings of...I don't know what!

My ex-husband has disappeared to somewhere. No one has spoken to him in a couple of weeks nor seen him...that we know of. My oldest hasn't...his possibly soon to be 2nd ex-wife, hasn't either in quite sometime. I still don't know if my son has either....He is a rather depressed man...so, I get concerned. Especially because his mother was a depressed person who ended her life by suicide....

I can't even sleep well. Hopefully, maybe tonight....

Til Later All!

BlueEyedWonder